Truth and Fiction - OR - Whatever gets you through the Night!

If I could write one thousand stories or live one thousand lives... I think I'd choose life.

It seems that the truth I find is more complex in life and as for the stories, well they're just fiction right?

I know very little and share even less, despite what you may think.

I have come to realize that life is too short, as many others before have discovered. My stream of consciousness has officially been altered; now I'd like to write a few stories, as god knows we don't have that long to share...

BTW, I realize sharing is for pussies and for 12 step groups. I also realize this unfortunate fact will not disturb the hitch and BS in my personal philosophy.

They are as follows. Do with them what you will.

I have watched my friends fall apart this year. I too have fallen apart. It hasn't been pretty and holy crap; if I could share what I know, we'd be here all night.

But this shit: It's locked, I don't know what to do with all these secrets...

I do know this... They are safe. I'd like to ask a favor though. Can we collectively get our shit together this coming year...? I'm including myself.

I guess this is more of a hope than anything... Fuck me thrice!

Thomas Paine: wrote the pamphlets.... "Common Sense" and "The Rights of Man"... He died penniless. What does this have to do with this conversation, you ask?

Well, Uncle Tom, was fond of pointing out hypocricy, and turning it into powerful satire; pointed, sharp satire. He was part of the joke... And yet he was most likely the most influential man in American politics. Without, TP - (hehe) this country wouldn't exist.

Which brings me to the HOLIDAYS!

WOOOHOO! -he said with an air of emptiness.-

The holidays are full of music, well wishes, and superficial friend and familial CRAP. What they are not full of is HONESTY.

Don't get me wrong, I know; we all TRY and do our part. Here's the thing. The people we are trying to fool, are never fooled. The people we love are always toyed with; and for some reason, we don't use "COMMON SENSE" we refrain from the embrace, we are all flawed, scared, and overwhelmed by SIMPLY underwhelming everyone we love. -subtle reference to my own underwhelming achievements this year-

So, to those who say, I've been distant. I agree. Distance is my thing right now... I don't know how long it will last or if I'll EVER come back.

Please know this though as you chew on my melodramatic bullshit. If I tell you "I love you." I mean it and always will. When I say the word LOVE, I mean it.

It's a two way street though right? I think I've driven the wrong way.

If you need something, I'll get it or give it. That has been demonstrated to me by those of you who say and actually mean the same. I also realise these are probably far less in number than those who actually throw the phrase at me...

Unfortunately, we aren't honest (at least I'm not), we play with fire.... And yet we don't expect to get burned.
We want, but deny, we live as we die... It's sad really... And beautiful!

Now it is my time to thank you... I'll do it individually as it's honest and you deserve it. "The Rights of Man" are "Common Sense".........................................

A: Thank You for your logic; humanity, poise, friendship, and dignity - I learn daily.
S: Thank You - for your TRUE LOVE and all that you do, I wish I could tell you what the future holds, but that's not honesty... Is it?
SC: I thank you for being Fucking Real. It's a breath of the freshest air. There is more to say, but I don't feel I need to. You fucking rock!
T: You tell it like it is; and always make me eat me words - after the fact - Thanks
J: You are wise, loving and true, I look forward to your happiness; it's infectious.
L: Wow... What a year. Thanks for showing me what it's like to know who you are. I LOVE YOU! Thanks for everything you've done to help me this year. You're beautiful and wonderful.
K: Don't forget us when you are famous... You've made me think and write music again. Thanks for teaching me that life can only be compartmentalized so much, before LOSS is all we feel. Thanks also for putting up with me. Honesty is nice, when it's real, it's also hard to swallow when you realize that you have made a mess. (I have) Thanks for challenging me, I am a challenge. I'm very proud to know you.
R: I love you, I hope you always know this.
B: You never get the credit you deserve... It's wrong. You are someone I respect. More than you'll ever really know.
JB: Your honesty is perpetual and your aim is true. I'm honored to be a part of your life, although a small part
D: What can I really say... Love you
G: Ditto!
A: Stay strong, please call again, we'll get a drink. I love you.
M: Thanks, I'm sorry I'm a disappointment... It's what I'm good at. I love you.
R: I'm trying...
E: I NEED those hugs, thanks.


Happy New Year -
I love you all... That's common fucking sense!

Jer